Well if you would have asked me about 3 months ago where I saw myself once summer started, I wouldn’t have said where I’m at today. I think I have made a complete 180 and I’m still recovering from the whip lash. Don’t get me wrong, I like where I’m at in some aspects but I would like to change a little bit before I go off the college. I think everyone has to go through a stage in their life in order to learn what’s right and what’s wrong. I’m still trying to figure that out so if anyone has all the answers, please tell me. I learned today that I need to know what I don’t know but I’m not sure what it is that I don’t know. I guess that comes with experience and maturity.

But anyways, I’m trying to live as much as I can before I go off to college and start a completely new life. It’s really sad to know that once I leave I wont be talking to half the people that I usually talk to. But it’s nice to know that those few people in my life will always be there for me when I need them, even if I am a few hundred miles away.

I have finally come to peace with everything that has happened and I’ve learned that to eliminate all the bad stuff out of your life you just have to move on from it. Yes, it’s hard to do that when things from the past keep creeping back in to your life, but it’s nothing that I little trust in God can’t take care of

I realized today that I have these two friends that are just about as awesome as they come. It makes me so happy to know that I have these two amazing people in my life that will always be there for me. It really is kind of sad that I’m leaving so soon though.

Anyways, I have been trying to make amends in my life by reconnecting with people who I have shut out for a long time. I guess forgiving people comes with maturing. I just hope it’s not too late to be friends again. Anyways, I am so happy right because I am finally realizing who I am. I am trying to get my life back in line again. I have learned a lot from the past.

Well this has been a random post, but earlier today I wrote this really long letter to my biffle and it made me realize everything I am going to be leaving behind. But I guess there is way more life for me to discover and that is quite exciting. I’m just so glad that God has blessed me with such good friends

Love you CAL haha

Tomorrow is the last day of high school. I cant decide if I’m excited or scared or sad. I guess a little bit of each. No more high school means no more getting up at 6:00 AM  every morning to get ready for school, or rushing to class to avoid getting a detention, or doing pointless homework some teacher gave you just so your time would be used “beneficially”, or cramming the night before a test as a weak attempt to pass. But no more high school also means not seeing all my friends on a daily basis, hanging out in the parking lot after school, going to Friday night football games then hitting up Waffle House after the game. It also means no more yearbooks to sign, spring break trips with basically the entire senior class, and no more attempts at a food fight during lunch. Ultimately it means ending the way of life as I know it to be and beginning a completely new part of my life. It makes me sad to know that I am going to be leaving some of my closest friends in about two months. I wish I had a little more time to get to know some of the people to whom I am just starting what could be a great friendship. There isn’t a memory that I want to forget or anything that I regret. I look back and realize how much I have changed. I wouldn’t recognize me if I went back to freshman year and looked at how I am now.  I love how my life is going now. I guess you could say that high school opened up my eyes to other ways of life and I can only imagine how much I am going to grow by the time I finish college…

Well I’m off to make my last trip to Publix to pick up the food for the last FCA tomorrow morning before the last day of school starts…

So as I’m sitting here doing some homework,  David Crowder starts playing. Come and Listen was the song. I’m not sure why, but I just starting crying. I realized that I have been running from God for the past few weeks. I thought that I was capable of running my own life without the help of anyone, even God. I had that mind set that I could do anything and get away with it. I was looking at people who were Christians but in my opinion werent living like they were. I did turn away  from God in a way for a little while because I knew tons of people were living a hypocritical life and I didnt want to be a part of it.  I didnt want to be like them anymore. So I started making my own rules…

I think I just realized something though. I was just thinking about something that I didnt want to remember and I wasnt sure how to get away from it. But then it hit me. The only place I can run to and feel pure love is to run to God. He is the only one who can stop the hurting. I’ve known this before but for reason I stopped believing it. I started living a life that 99%  of people would approve of and that’s why I did it. I wanted to be accepted by everyone. What a cliche right? I never thought it would happen to me. I am not the same person I was a few months ago, and for that I am sure not regretful. I can honestly say I dont want to take back anything that has happened. I am a different person today which is something I am happy about. But I am running back to God now. It’s something I should have realized a while ago. Maybe it reminded me too much of the past ( something I am moving on from). It got hard for me to listen to certain songs and to hear certain things from people. But I can’t turn away from God because He is always there and for that I am so overwhelmed and grateful.

This was random, but it was from my heart. I truely believe God calls on us when we’re at our lowest point. I now know this from experience. I’ll be praying that God continues to work in my life and that something like this doesnt happen again. I am so thankful for all the people to whom I have become so close. I am loving life right now and God has opened my eyes to so many new things and I absolutely love it!

I have a new found love for Phil Wickham, FYI…

Anyways, I went to Passion City Church Sunday night. Louie Giglio is honestly one of the best speakers I’ve ever had the chance to hear. His passion for God and all His people is astounding. Chris Tomlin and Matt Redman were the worship leaders. They were amazing!!! Matt wrote a new song recently about God’s grace; I think that song alone could change lives. Those two are truly blessed with talent and passion for leading worship.  PCC is going to be at the Verizon Wireless Amphitheater on good Friday, and everyone should go; it will change your life…

I have never felt as close to God as I do right now. I love this feeling. I know that no matter what happens to me here on Earth, my God will always be there for me to lift me up. Some of my friends are going through some hard times right now and I only wish I could give them something to make things better. I guess all we can do is pray for wisdom and peace.

I have also come to realization that God has blessed me in more ways than I will ever know. I am surrounded by so many people that truly love me and for that I am so thankful. I’m trying really hard to be positive about life right now, even though some days it is rather difficult to do. But we all need to understand that God has a plan for everyone.

To whomever reads, I hope you have a blessed day No matter what may be going on in your life, God is not going to put you in any situation that you cannot handle (with his help of course).

Hey!

So yeah, Emily Perry and Katie Daniel would like to say hey.

So i doubt anyone is going to read this, but if you do then you are awesome. Yearbook is fun, we dont do anything in here. We have a closet, where a lot of stuff “happens”

for instance: eating rotten cheese, making songs about getting high (but not really), having secret girl talk, people falling out of rolly chairs, trying to find signal for the cell, heating up tomato soup/ cookies/ tea/ pizza/ lasagna/ chicken/ and basically everything else that you can put in the microwave.

so the other day, i was looking for songs to “better my mood” and ms emily tried to stop me. soooooooo i may have tackled her it was funny. then i got rejected by a fellow yearbooker for prom, thank you chris. then he laughed at my singing, then he used a retarded picture of me as his profile picture on facebook. whatever chris, i know you secretly love me.

and we all know what katie likes to do in the closet )))))))) wink wink wink (samuel)

so anyways, i hope everyone has a nice day and remember that Jesus loves you. and that you should try to find the good in everyone, even though its hard sometimes.

Bye now!

Love Lindsey, Emily, and Katie

Today is Christmas and it was a great day! This holiday was a little different than most for me. Last night, on the eve, my family and I went to this really small town, East of Atlanta, to visit some family that we haven’t seen in quite some time. Some of the people there I had never met but were related to me, and others were  faces that belonged to those that were tucked in the very back of my memory… It was very cool to see this side of my family; my cousins were all grown up and had kids that were adorable! I’m so excited to get reconnected with all these great people!

So the other day I went to church on the street, which was amazing. I got to talking to this one guy who had been sent to Vietnam 3 (it might have been 4) times, gotten divorced, and is now living on the street. But he never complained once during our conversation but ironically said he was doing great.

Then, as I was walking around, I saw this man sitting by himself so I asked him if he wanted to pray about anything. He looked at me with such a happy expression on his face and replied to me “No, I have Jesus in my heart so I’m doing good.” Then he asked me if I wanted him to pray for me about anything. So I just decided we should pray together, so we did, along with 2 of his friends. Then right after we said amen, he looked at me and said the most amazing and unexpected thing to me. He said that he felt it in his heart that I was going to do something great for God. He said that as long as I kept believing and kept reading God’s word that God was going to use me for something amazing to reach other people. I don’t know how he knew this, well actually I do, but those were the exact words that I was waiting to hear. I have been praying, reading, and asking for God to show me what He wanted me to do. I never thought it would be revealed to me by a homeless guy named Sean who lived downtown Atlanta. God works in mysterious ways….

I think it’s amazing that even when someone is living on the streets with absolutely nothing, they can still find the ability to be happy because they know that Jesus loves them. That’s so awesome… in my book at least.

Merry Christmas everybody!!

Hello from french class again! Tony, Emily, and I are just hanging out. We just got done with our exam so its party time now.

We took some pictures and Emily just informed me that she gets really nervous when she’s around my camera… strange. 

It’s exactly a week until Christmas! We’re all extremely excited!

Tony and I are listening to Real Big Fish. They’re a really cool ska band.

This is from Anthony… if only we were as cool as him…

And what’s the point of existing when you live only through words, you live through thoughts, through recalling moments in life you can never return to… a metaphoric existence… one of the most dangerous ways to live (if you value you sanity at least). Learn to live beyond the written world, that’s my goal… I’ve been stuck so long in words, I’ve forgotten what life is like.

Emily’s going to take a picture of me in action

Oh yeah the title means, I Like Bananas, in Finish.

Merry Almost Holidays!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bonjour! So Emily and I are just sitting in french class and we have nothing to do. So here we are…

We have a friend named Anthony and he always writes really deep stuff…. which inspired us to write something, along the lines of “deep and intellectual.”

We’re both rather excited for Christmas time, after all it’s the best time of the year! We’ve learned how to sing Christmas carols en francaise and then we went to visit the jeune francaise 1 class to sing to them, it was tres fantastic.

Words from our finnish loving friend Anthony “I’ve wandered for years with blistered feet, walking upon charred days. I’ve been told to forget. Lies. I’ve starred into eyes more beautiful than moutains and have watched them go black while near me. Show me your soul and I’ll take you for a walk down ashen hallways, beyond reality… to truth… to pain, as some call it. But that was then, so many eyes I’ve already made turn away from their smiles… now I can wonder with blistering feet through some conscience I thought was my own but no one can longer recognize.”

He’s a poetic genius….

Anyways, Emily and I just wanted to say hello from school, even though no one will probaby read this.

Au revoir!

So I found this in one of my journals that I wrote back in September…

     Someone once told me that the difference from love is indifference, not hate. So does hate really mean love that’s rejected? Do we hate the the people we love the most, because you cant hate without caring about someone? So maybe when we hate someone, we really just want to love them but are hung up on something that happened, which probably happened out of love. None of us really experience indifference, at least as Christians we don’t. We know we must love everyone, therefore some of us hate… So really, can a christian be indifferent? I think some people need to realize that love and hate take equal amounts of time and energy. So why waste time being unhappy and hateful when you can use the same amount of life to love and bring others to know love??